New year, new job, new friends, what else?

When it all comes crashing down
choke me home
to the stars

Whisper in my ear
"It'll be alright"
"It'll be over soon"

Hold me tight and never let go
The problems will vanish
The pain will cease

I have two answers to this proposed question -

1) Gardening and plant mainantance, because plants are amaising oranisms that are almost always unpredictable in their growth habbit and so diverse in their colours, textures, smells and appeal. They're fantastic! I love looking after them and watching them grow. They make me feel needed (to water, to provide nutrients, to prun etc).
Does that make sound like a bad person? Because I like to feel needed.. lol. I don't even know what I'm talking about anymore, I just love plants. They make me happy when they're triving, and they make me sad when they don't look well. They really affect me and mean a lot to me.
I'm not much into flowers, but I love bees and animals, which are attracted to flowers. I like cacti and I LOVE bonsia! Miniture tree landscapes with little figurings always look really cool.

My second passion, well that's another obvious answer (for those that know me) - SPIKE of course. He means everything to me. What else is there to say? There are no words that can describe how I feel about him. I love him with all my heart and want to be with him forever.
Sure we may have our arguments and dissagreements, but they mean nothing the big picture. I wish he'd stop lying so much though. I really want to believe him and be able to trust him, but at the moment I know that I can't. What's that saying? Take it with a pinch of salt.. (?) ...
Oh and he's a sexy boy. Can't forget that. He can be very passionate when we're alone, and ofcourse I'm the same. (Too much information? lol!!)

I didn't go to work on Monday, or yesterday (Wednesday). I tried going again today. I was almost 20 minutes late and only lasted about 2 hours before I had to go home again.
I was supposed to go to an apprentice meeting today, which I thought was on tomorrow. I should probably call someone to find out what I missed.
I'm not going to work tomorrow.. My doctor said yesterday that should take the rest of the week off. I shouldn't have even tried going this morning.
I hate spending hours on end at home. There's nothing to do that haven't already done before. I can't go out because I'm too sick to do anything but rest. I can't read because I have a headache. I can't eat because it makes me feel worse. I can't sleep because then I won't sleep tonight. Daytime tv is soooo annoying. Although I don't mind The Ellen DeGeneres Show. =P



Good news! - Spike will probably come over tomorrow to visit me and keep me company.

I drew a picture of some anime characters yesterday. It's not finished yet, but I noticed that they are starting to look like Spike and I. At first the girl was wearing barely anything. I looked at it and though "that's not something I'd wear, I'd better dress her in something a bit more descent". Wanna see? I can't wait to show Spike, I wonder how he'll react. lol. Hopefully he won't see it here before I get to show him in person. =)

( Pictures! )

Today Spike and I decided to go on a brake..










Oh, and I got a prescription (and repeats) of the antidepressants I used to take.









Yeah.. my life thus far..

To my Beloved,
I'll be waiting for you in the tunnel with Jonesy.. I love you

- of my apprenticeship almost over!!
My grades have been getting better (33/34, 22/23, etc). And a lot of the info I've been learning has really stuck with me, and been useful at work. It's awesome when my supervisors can tell that I'm really motivated, interested and keen to learn from both experience out in the field and theory at school.
I can't believe that I've almost been working for a full year - only a couple more months to go.
I've met so many people and made loads of new friends at heaps of different depots around town. It's going to be really hard when I have to choose where I want to work for a full year in my forth year of the apprenticeship, and then when I get a job the year after. I'm thinking probably Athllon Depot because the people there are awesome and I get along well with everyone there, They not only have a hort crew there, but they have fireys and rangers - both of which I'm very interested in learning more about and working with if possible, and it's close to home which is always good. But I still have a few years ahead of me to make the big decisions like that. =)